Finding myself...

Recently I've had some major ups and downs in my life! I wasn't sure what exactly I had to do to get out of the rut. Needless to say things got out of hand quickly, starting in my family environment - something I vowed would never happen. But as they say: Never is a long, long time.

I had to make a decision, and quickly. So my option was... instead of taking things out on my family, friends and colleagues at work, I'd take a break away from it all (called my manager and asked for 2 days off) and rather reflect inwards - and find myself! Yes, find myself.

I took the opportunity to reflect on what makes me tick... if all this was perhaps not just me being upset for not achieving specific goals, or being stuck in routine, or not being there for my family and friends. Anything was possible. And I noted that once I started making small changes in my life, I noticed changes in others.

Question is, WHY?  Because the way I started treating people surrounding me different, they started treating me different. And it all started with me!

Have you taken the time to invest in yourself? Especially as of late? I hope you find the time too! And you'll notice that even the slightest change in oneself can make a big difference around you. Every bit helps!

Another day... Check-up Day

Today is check-up day... I need to get to the doctor just to re-evaluate my health status. I try and do it once every 6 months - as people always say: You can't put a price on your health...

 

Recently we've had the kids and cousins quite sick. My brother's youngest, Cody, even had to go for a quick operation on this nose / sinus. My little one, Jordan, had issues with her mouth... its all making you think about what they mean to you - and if you'll always be there for them in future!

 

Then I'm thinking of following up on my project ride - which isn't really getting anywhere - my 1971 Datsun P510 1600. It needs a lot of work, but I love it so much I can perhaps invest some time (and money) in it. Believe it or not, I even thought of selling her recently.

 

But whatever I decide, or the doctor says: I'm going to be positive and not let anything stand in my way from here on end.

 

Be blessed!

me

Keeping me busy

It looks like I've found a couple of things (interests) to keep my busy... or should I say - focussed. All just not to go through life with the same routine... need change... constantly... I easily fall within that mould, no hole! And I must say, I'm loving it...

First off, I've been giving some of my time voluntary to assist a trust assisting with study bursaries. Have invested a few hours, trying to give some of my "skills." Then I've also started another blog on one of my loves... the Datsun brand of vehicle. New release scheduled for this coming Monday - refer http://goo.gl/cBWdk.

Next, I should re-invest a lot of time into my kids... especially my son, aged 16. Seems when I have a new interest, I focus all of my energy there. Should find a middle ground somehow.. and soon. For the sake of myself, and my family.

Trusting you find yourself soon...
John

Time to reflect

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1 July 2013... That's today's date... I almost can't believe that 6 months have passed in this year! SIX MONTHS! This is  a good time to reflect... Where has the year gone? Its quickly running its race towards year-end...  And now I ask myself... what have I achieved so far?

Me that's stuck in my routine... going nowhere, slowly, encircling the sun as the Earth journeys aorund it effecting change of seasons... and I have nothing of value to show... or do I?

What have I wanted to achieve this year? Can't purely be to see the Year End? To survive the rat-race? Didn't I set about to make a change in myself and thus hopefully bring a small change to my family & friends, colleagues, etc?? Or is this too much to ask of myself?

I think there's still a lot that I can do... That's why re-examining its so crucial, its key - 'cause we can adapt! So I'm making a decision today - I'll achieve all of my goals this year... Let's re-align ourselves once again... change is good... but perfecting life is better!  ;-)

I've found myself...

Does that sound right? I've found myself... I've been going through the motions the last couple of months and can't determine where all that time went! Where did it go? Its like routine... settling in slowly and before you know it... you're stuck in a cycle you cannot get out of...

But as I said, I found myself... I'm re-investing in myself. I'm investing into a 2nd Blog on an idea that's been circling my mind for so long... and its given me time to even blog here... Not bad I'd say. Finally I look forward to coming home and work on some ideas and logo's and post(s), etc.  ( o_O)  Weird hey.

But who cares... I've found myself. Here's to me!

Hope you have found yourself as well...

Proud father

Today I just wanna shout out to the world how proud I am as a father to my wonderful kids. Its not always one has the opportunity to let your kids know how you feel, so these moments are truly precious.

I am one of those who believes in the value of education and therefore I'll measure my kids against their school report cards - something my wifey can't stand. I'm trying my utmost to not do that anymore... but in the end we all know that these reports will be the measuring stick by which we are eventually measured: Highest education, Cum-Laude (or not) - which results in great vs average CV's and possible work opportunities...

But I'm losing focus. My kids Revano (aged 16) and Jodie (aged 6) passed their 2nd Quarter Examinations - both have improved their marks! And what more can I ask of them.

Revano - especially to you I wanna say I am proud of you my son. I know you are capable of SO much more. Just believe in yourself. The World is waiting... go out and grab all opportunities with BOTH HANDS! I wish only the best for you! God bless and keep you safe!

Jodie - Daddy loves you my darling. I know you are just starting out with your schooling - but it always helps when you enjoy what you do, enjoy playing teacher and enjoy learning in general. I trust that God grants me the opportunity to see you through your scholastic years. Stay the wonderful little princess that you are.

Then, to my "BABA-rush-KA" Jordan (aged 2) - who terrorises my mother-in-law on a daily basis (Thanks Ma Cynthia) - You already have your own personality, you're already your own little person. I pray God keeps you safe, I pray he brings His healing hands over you and releases you from the dry eczema...

To my lovely wifey - Rene - I thank the Lord for someone like you in my life! Please hold my hand as we try our utmost in raising our kids. We don't know what the future holds, but as long as I am here, as long as I'm breathing... I'll give my all to make all of you happy.

I love you with all my heart!
John, aka Hubby, aka Fatty Daddy, aka "me!"

Indoors...

So, I fell ill at work last week Thursday - so much so that an ambulance was called in to take me to be hospitalised. Makes you re-look your life, where you're standing and who you got surrounding you.

Needless to say, I'm stuck at home now... bored out of my scull! But I am getting some valuable time with my two year old princess - Jordan Riley - and I should try and connect more with my six year old - Jodie Leigh... soon. Luckily I was instructed by my manager to take an additional few annual leave days off, so I'm hoping to make the most of my time off towards the long weekend.

Be blessed, one and all!
Jojo-RSA